#write that in your native language matt!!!!

[eggfruit]

BTW!!!!!!! YO! AH! AH! ¡LAS ETIQUETAS POR FAVOR!!!!

[pastafossa]

hi pasta ! i’ve been a long time fan of you and your work, your writing is by far my favorite so far for matt that you’ve reignited me to write fanfics again ! i think you’re incredibly talented and so smart in your way of designing a story so vividly it just sparked my desire to to create again after my 30th reread of TRT. it is totally okay if you choose not to answer these but i have a couple of questions for writers? i have written fanfics before but they never came out to my liking (i never published them😅) so i’m looking to improve it and better my understanding of creating content that i like and am proud of!

the questions !! :

what are some things and tricks to writing lively, real dialogue? i find when i write sometimes my characters seem dull and cardboard like. i want it to flow naturally god dammit !

how do you go about characterization and staying true to it as your character develop and evolve? and to riff off of this question what is some additional research you would do to get the nature of your chosen character (ex, matt) right?

what are ways to better your writing? for example highlighting a characters complex emotions, describing the scenery around, detailed fight scenes and car chases, etc, etc. and not just them but silly grammatical errors and simple vocab. (i’m trilingual so it get a bit fuzzy remember all the rules of every language 😭) your foreshadowing game is just chefs kiss cuz you would sit on something and brush past it but it’ll make its comeback 20 chaps later, HOW??

and lastly, what is your advice to planning a long story? what are some steps you take to je respect the timeline of a show or a movie and how do you fit your OC into it? as well as making the OC’s backstory fit in. speaking of backstory and lore, i find it so hard to fit in believable, human lore to my OC and not make it super childish. i think you did such an interesting job with project beagle, the antagonist, the body swapping, the symbolism, etc, that it just feel so canon to me.

well thats all i have to ask, i hope it’s not too much, you really are such an awesome artist and i admire your work as a writer so much! thank you for sharing your stories on here/ao3. ❤️

Oh my gosh, this is so sweet! I'm absolutely gd honored you love TRT this much, I'm so, so happy it could help make you want to write fic again! 😭😭😭 Seriously, one of the things that just makes me absolutely delighted is when something I've made could lead to more things being made in turn, cause I don't just love Matt and Daredevil and TRT, I love stories in general! The world needs more of them, so this is FUCKING AWESOME. And I'm happy to answer these questions as best I can!

I'm also going to put this behind a see-more tag cause it's long LOL.

Token Matt gif just for fun. LET'S GET STARTED.

Natural, lively dialogue: Ooooh this is a fun question I haven't gotten asked before I don't think. I won't lie, part of it absolutely the immersion with all the shows, movies, and books I take in. But there's another element I was taught in creative writing classes - the idea that sometimes you should read as a writer. That is: read while asking yourself, 'how did they do that? Why? How did they foreshadow this?' Etc. You can do the same thing with characters speaking and with people. Listen to how these characters speak, how similar people speak, and try to get a feel for how they talk. I'll use contractions as an example. Most people use contractions, for example (at least in the US), in natural flowing dialogue. It's shorter, it's more casual, whereas they might speak more formally (less contractions) in a professional setting like a courtroom or when they're really angry and speaking somewhat threateningly. They also might not use contractions for other reasons - in TRT Ciro tends to use fewer contractions when speaking English, both because he's a classy guy and because English isn't his native language (he learned it more formally). I also try to treat each character as having their own natural accent (which can also show a bit of their personality). Matt rambles when he's nervous, but his dialogue gets sharp and choppy when he's furious (Devil wants to act, not talk). Foggy loves metaphors and has a lot of swings up and down in tone for emphasis (Grew up a theatre kid). When Jane in TRT is feeling particularly cold, she starts dropping unnecessary words from her sentences so they're shorter (more efficient + trained to give immediate answers without flourish). Sometimes it can also help to listen to the dialogue you write or have it go through a text-to-speech program so you can hear if it sounds stilted, but I've found the ability to detect stilted dialogue is just something you have to practice!

Keeping true to the character while letting them evolve: this is ALSO A FUN QUESTION. Especially because something I was taught is that, generally speaking (always exceptions): a stagnant character is a boring character. They need to struggle with who they are, and grow or devolve as a person. They need to learn. I knew I wanted that to happen in TRT, so yeah, a big question was how I could show characters growing while also keeping them the characters we know and love. And for me it was about figuring out what the basic building blocks of those characters were, and making sure they were always present, because an apple pie should always, in theory, come out of the oven an apple pie, even if it's been changed some by baking. Things like Matt's struggle with his faith, the way he's sorta incapable of finding a middle ground between Devil and Matt Murdock, his refusal to ignore injustice, his trauma and fear of abandonment, his love of the Kitchen, his anger issues and the ensuing impulsivity, these are all building blocks for him. These do not change. What changes is how they manifest, and what he does with them. Matt learns he can trust Jane with his trauma and fear of abandonment. She helps calm his anger. The building blocks are all still there. Some of them just get arranged a little differently as he grows. Same with Jane and how she has grown. She's always going to have Hound Mode floating around in the back of her head. Security will always be her biggest concern, her motivator. She's always going to be the one who prefers to think and plan. She'll always feel a little weird about personal identity, and be able to flip through lies and false faces with the best of them. But she'll handle all of that differently as she grows alongside Matt. The plot is baking them, changing those pies in the oven, but their base ingredients are something I'm super careful to keep consistent. That I think is one of my secrets since this has been going on 8 years now!

Additional research for characterization: I am always, always, always going to recommend good psychology research (I loved this shit in college, especially developmental psychology, and fortunately there's a TON that's easily accessible online and doesn't require any classes). For Matt, that would be psychological things like... what does repeated abandonment do to a person when they're a kid? How does abandonment and parental loss shape their attachment styles and relationships later in life (hint: it's not great)? We know he has untreated depression, so what's going on in his brain considering he's pushing all that down? What would the day-to-day struggle being exposed to all that crime and pain do (research into things like the mental health of paramedics and social workers, etc)? Dissect these characters like little bugs, put them on your table, and try to figure out why someone would do what they do. Be curious, basically!

How To Improve In General: I LOVE THAT YOU BROUGHT UP MY FORESHADOWING FIRST OFF, I'LL ANSWER THAT IN THE NEXT BIT FOR PLANNING BUT. For me this is a couple things. The biggest one is reading, reading, reading. Read professional stuff in addition to fanfic. Read in your chosen genre. Read writers you want to write like! Read writers who are writing what you want to learn! And when you do, ask yourself how they did what you want to do. I have one book series that's my absolute favorite, I've read it over and over and over again. And it's very likely that someone who's read that book series and TRT would be able to spot the influence that book series has had on Jane's character voice, how I write action scenes, morally grey characters, etc. So that's where some of it comes from! For things like detailed emotions and sensations, my favorite book is The Emotion Thesaurus! I've found I don't need it as much now because I've gotten the hang of it, but it's still good to have there as a refresher. And for things like grammar and simple vocab, not only will reading help, but I'd also open the door to any fandom friends who might beta read for you! I've been writing fic since I was... hrrgh, quite young. And I'm super grateful for the betas over the years that would go over my fic and leave notes - notes not just on what they had changed but why: why they changed this punctuation, why they broke up this sentence, why they capitalized this or lower-cased that. That helped a ton! But yeah, when in doubt, grab an author you love and open it up and go, '...Ok, so how did you do this???' Also holy hell, you're triilingual so you already get a TON of kudos here on learning how multiple languages work, YOU GOT THIS.

Planning a long story: now's the part where I make people groan but the biggest advice is to outline, I know a ton of us heard it in school and ignored it because pfft but THE OUTLINE REALLY IS IMPORTANT. This is how I was able to foreshadow things ages in advance - I knew what was coming in the future so I was able to leave breadcrumbs earlier on. This also meant I was able to figure out how certain dominoes would tip (like when TRT's original plotlines would change something in canon) or when there were gaps in Daredevil's timeline that I could neatly settle into. Knowing the entirety of the story and having it all laid out also meant it was easier to change things or work to make sure TRT fit into the Daredevil/Marvel Universe like a puzzle piece. That was one of the steps for me both when it came to respecting the timeline (not that you need to! That was a personal choice for me) and with making sure the lore all fit in. I love the Marvel universe, have since I was a kid, so I was able to tap some of their fun recurring tropes and themes (Evil scientists, secret government projects, Mutants/Enhanced characters in hiding) and instead of trying to make it new, I tried to do my own spin on it instead because I know this sort of thing already exists there, and threw in some of the other general genre tropes I enjoy (love me some symbolic otherworlds and psychic connections). I think for an OC like this, that's sort of the key. Their backstories will fit because they're built on power structures and building blocks that already exist. It's just about finding a little section that hasn't been told yet. That's where this type of OC flourishes: in these little gaps between walls and load-bearing pillars, a story and character you wouldn't find all that unusual if they popped up as a side character in canon, all to explore some part of the world that hasn't really been fleshed out yet. AND if desired, I think there's something to be said for matching just how grounded/fantastical your show/movie is. Daredevil is very, very grounded. People get hurt. They die. These aren't Avengers-level Gods who can take a lightning strike. So I respected that with Jane, who gets hurt... fairly often, tbh. I also leaned into, yet again, a story gap in that while a lot of the people running around with the Devil (Frank, Elektra, Stick, Jess and Luke, etc) are GOOD at fighting, Jane's specialty is NOT fighting, generally, even if she's pretty damn good with a gun and quick with her knife. Her specialty is getting away, so it gives us new things to explore in terms of threats and fight scenes!

I hope all of this helps! Everyone gets better with practice, so don't be afraid to put your stuff out there! God knows I've got old fanfic floating around the internet, and a lot of my early stuff wasn't anywhere near what TRT is. But I also couldn't have gotten to TRT without writing it, posting it, and learning from it. <3

[nadiuu]

I saw a post mentioning how Matt most likely has ADHD, and since I 100% agree, I wanted to elaborate a bit here (also because I’ll approach it from a matt/mello angle and I don’t want to annoy anyone who doesn’t ship them). I’ve also noticed that this is a headcanon that many people share, so I’d like to delve deeper into it. I’ve been meaning to write a mini-analysis on why these two are so compatible due to their neurodivergences. Please keep in mind that English isn’t my native language so sorry for any mistakes, and I’ll be projecting a lot of myself here, so be kind XDD

It’s not crazy to think that Matt might have ADHD based on the few clues we have in canon. Mogui and Misa’s escape could indeed be attributed to good planning, and not necessarily Matt’s fault, but the guy makes it clear that he’s absolutely bored to death having to keep watch and is always glued to his console.

And you might say: Nadiu, just because he gets bored watching something static doesn’t mean he has trouble concentrating. Sure, it’s normal to get bored. But Matt is aware of how important it is to keep watch, and even then, he can’t help it. If his brain doesn’t receive enough stimuli, he dieeeees (which could be an indicator of his giftedness), and he’ll seek out little dopamine boosts wherever he can. If it’s not gaming, it’ll be eating junk food. If it’s not eating, it’ll be smoking. This could indicate a certain level of anxiety (again, a possible indicator of giftedness or ADHD).

We also know he’s someone who hates the outdoors. Why might this be? For someone with ADHD, being surrounded by too much stimulation can be overwhelming. Gifted people will tend to notice everything around them, and those with 2e (gifted + ADHD) may struggle to focus their attention if they’re overstimulated. They pick up on all the stimuli and can’t focus on just one. This could lead them to prefer isolating themselves, at least occasionally, especially when they reach burnout.

Another thing to consider is his lack of sociability. This doesn’t have to be exclusive to ADHD because it’s also common among gifted people, even without 2e. For gifted people, socializing can be hard if there’s nothing engaging to take away from a conversation (our greatest enemy is small talk hahhaha). This doesn’t apply to everyone, but it’s a fairly common factor. We like to keep our brains stimulated 24/7.

Now imagine someone who perceives everything around them, analyzes every detail, and can’t discern what’s important and what isn’t. They’re chatting with you, but instead of focusing on what you’re saying, they can’t help but notice your eyelid twitching e.g., which might mean you’re stressed, and then they start thinking about all the possible reasons you might be stressed. Meanwhile, there are countless sounds and stimuli around them that they can’t ignore. It’s going to be hard for them to really listen to you, and they might not feel at peace until they get home, where they can finally relax. Gifted people can also be sensitive to light and sound; in our homes, we control everything. They’re our safe spaces.

Again, this doesn’t have to be true for everyone. Let’s remember that every person is unique.

That leads me to Mello—he’s an example of how someone can be gifted and still be sociable. I don’t think Mello has any neurodivergence beyond his giftedness, without 2e (adhd or autism). I know there’s some debate about whether giftedness counts as a neurodivergence, but let’s assume it does for the sake of this post ahhahah

I think the most interesting trait of Mello, in terms of his giftedness, is his hyper-demanding nature. We tend to be perfectionists, extremely demanding of ourselves, which leads to low frustration tolerance. We want to achieve excellence and can become obsessive in pursuing our goals. However, we’re very likely to encounter obstacles (without obstacles there’s no growth), but we often don’t know how to deal with them. Needless to say, this ties in with Near, who is a prodigy, and with Mello’s inferiority complex.

So, why are Matt and Mello such a good match?

First of all, in Wammy’s House, Matt didn’t pose a threat to Mello. Matt was ranked third, and whether it was due to a lack of interest or difficulties with studying, he never surpassed Mello. For Mello, anything below him wasn’t important; what deserved all his attention was whatever was above him.

We have to assume they maintained some kind of friendship at Wammy’s House because years later, when Mello is left on his own, he reaches out to Matt, and Matt comes to his aid. Matt drops everything to go to him. He knows what he’s getting into, the risks involved, and yet he does it. He must have some motivation to help find Kira. And if it’s alongside his old friend, even better.

Here’s where the sociability factor comes in. How many friendships could an introverted guy have made in those five years, after losing the ‘shelter’ of an orphanage full of kids similar to him and being thrown into the real world, surrounded by neurotypical people? You get what I mean, right...? Mello must have left some sort of mark on him if Matt went all the way to New York for him. Could it be that he was already in New York? Maybe, but let me dream hahaha

Now imagine how an introvert and an extrovert, both incapable of forming and maintaining relationships with others due to that sense of being misunderstood (‘the world is neurotypical and I’ve never dealt with it’), complement each other. This makes me think about Near’s loneliness, but we’ll leave that for another day XD Matt works from the safety of home, and Mello, obsessed with success, has no problem going out because he takes the world head-on. Matt, who has likely felt somewhat useless his whole life because of his ADHD, has Mello by his side telling him “I choose you”. Matt, who might have always been a bit insecure, has Mello betting on him. Maybe because he has no other choice? Maybe, but if Mello wants to find someone else who can truly understand him, his only option is Matt.

Mello, who’s willing to blow himself up to win, then has Matt telling him, “Calm down. Stay in tonight to play video games and smoke a joint.” Mello, who has some suicidal idea for catching Kira, shares it with Matt, and Matt agrees because his brain has produced more dopamine in two months than in five years. The Kira case is a puzzle that stimulates them and gives them a purpose.

To wrap this up, I want to share a dialogue (still a rough draft) that will appear later in my fic, putting the cherry on top of this tragedy. Matt tries to dissuade Mello from pursuing the Kira case after the massive scar he earned on his face.

Matt: Why is it your duty to keep going? Why yours? Mello: Who else will do it? Who can keep up with Kira? Matt: You, right? Or Near. Or me. Because we had the sheer luck of being born with this intellect. Mello: Yes. Matt: No. You and I have no duty to a society that failed us. We don’t have to fix the problems of a society that let us rot in that institution. Is it because we’re orphans? Is that it? Do we have nothing to lose but our lives? No one to mourn us if we die? Because there are plenty of other people out there with the abilities you and I have, and I don’t see them risking their necks the way you do. They weren’t pushed to become detectives. They have something to lose; they have their families. Do you deserve to die just because no one will miss you?

And if you’ll allow me to break your heart a little more, Matt’s next thought is:

'Because it’s not even true. You’ll kill me if I lose you again.'

[nosebleedsturn]

About Me !

Hi I’m Summer or Autumn or Winter whatever floats your boat I guess! Here’s a short Q & A to answer some basic questions so we can get to know each other!

Birthday: march 14, 2006 Pisces baby for life ♓️

Fav Singer? Currently it’s Nessa Barrett and Sabrina Carpenter

Fav Color? I LOVE PURPLE #still team nick!

Fav Band? 5 Seconds of Summer (I’m a micashcaluke girl) & The 1975

Fav Triplet? I was originally a nick girl but I eventually fell for Chris and then Matt caught my eye cause he was quiet and mysterious and I love that. But ultimately I can’t pick (most of my books are about Matt though so take that as u will)

Fav Friend of the Triplets? I loved when they were friends with Nessa. I love Madi and Madison and I LOVE NATE (I’m a Nate girl most definitely)

Fav Songs? Sex by The 1975, Constellations by Jade LeMac, Breakup by Ashton Irwin, Collide by Rachel Platten, Romance by My Chemical Romance, Heartbreak Girl by 5SOS, Out of Oklahoma by Lainey Wilson and SOO MANY MORE

Fav Movie? I loved The Florida Project, Descendants 2, Sleeping Beauty, Alice in Wonderland, Mall Cop, The Hangover and like SO MUCH MORE

Fav Tv Show? The Vampire Diaries, Teen Wolf, Outer Banks, Bones, Supernatural, The Walking Dead & SO MUCH MORE

Fav Emojis? 🪩💌🌪️🩰🦚💋🪽👒🦋🦢🐚🪸🌷🥀🌙🪐💫✨🌩️🫧🫐🥭🥥☕️🧋🎱🏹🎬🎲🎰⚓️🎠🎞️🔮🧿🩻🔑🧸🎀🪞🪭📍❤️‍🔥🤎

Fav Place? I prefer LA lifestyle to New York (I’m a true tumblr girl btw I’ve been here for years so LA speaks to me so differently than NY speaks to yall) I adore Disneyland, I want to travel to Italy, France, Greece, Dubai and yeah

Fav YouTubers? I really love Sam and Colby, Baylen Lavine, Jake & Johnnie, Jesssfam, idk I don’t follow people on YT who aren’t related to the triplets in some way, or aren’t my friends

Extra Stuff About Me:

I’m 18, a dancer, I’m not currently in school or working so I’m kinda bored. I’ve always dreamed about being a YouTuber since before YouTubers even made good money to live off of, and I’ve started my YouTube career ofc… Anywho, my other dreams are traveling, being in music videos, and learning new languages.

I’m French, Native American, and Mexican with a bit of German and Irish (☘️?? I think) mixed in there. So I’m pretty well rounded and I HATE TRUMP MAKE AMERICA BLUE AGAIN !!

Huge Larry Stylinson girlie even in this big year of 2025. But I’m not an insane shipper I love them as friends too

I hate enemies to lovers tropes, one bed, fake dating, & bully tropes… but I love long time friends to lovers, incredibly painful slow burn, bad boy x good girl, “I don’t wanna be saved” x “I’d do anything to save you” and yuh!!!

Stick around a while I hope I don’t disappoint

(Things I want to write for are in tags and there’s probably stuff I missed but feel free to ask questions too I don’t mind)

[speaknahuatl]

🧑‍🏫 Temaxtiani Spotlight: @tonalpowalli

Finishing off Teacher Appreciation Week, we spotlight @tonalpowalli!

Q. Tell us about yourself! (I.e. hobbies, name, family, pastimes)

A. Nimitzchicahua imeme! Neł nimotoca Matt nozo Tonalpowalli ipan Instagram - Hi everyone! My name is Matt or Tonalpowalli on IG. My hobbies include: music production & listening, reading, cooking, video games, and continually learning about my culture/heritage. I also enjoy gardening and going out to local restaurants & breweries.

Q. How long have you been collaborating at Speaknahuatl? How long have you been teaching at Speaknahuatl?

A. I’ve been working with Speaknahuatl for about 4 years now, helping as a teacher’s assistant and online teacher for about the same amount of time. I started out as a student, but found myself moving into teaching pretty quickly after my first round of classes. As far as my own journey learning Nahuatl goes, it’s been almost a decade of continuous work with the language, which has given me a lot to think about and draw from.

Q. What is your teaching background and where were you raised?

A. I have a background in teaching people at jobs I’ve had (I manage a small café, and have a background in both coffee & audio production), and have helped teach friends music production. However, it wasn’t until joining Speaknahuatl that I began language instruction.

I was raised in Los Angeles, on the west side of the city, although I also spent a lot of time in San Pedro, Midcity, and East LA when spending time with family and friends. As a person who is mixed Native & Italian, I was fortunate to be around my culture and raised with a knowledge of my cultural identity in a beautifully diverse city.

Q. What Nahuatl dialectal variants and/or subject(s) do you teach at Speaknahuatl?

A. I began with Huasteca Nahuatl, but have been fortunate to be part of the efforts to revitalize Jalisco Nahuatl. My own familial variants are Jalisco Nahuatl & Caxcan Nahuatl (Nahuał & Nahuat, respectively), so being able to work with one to strengthen my knowledge of the other has been amazing.

Q. What is the most rewarding part of teaching at Speaknahuatl?

A. There are two things that are always incredibly rewarding: seeing students recognize their ability to learn or when a student recognizes a word from their parents or grandparents saying it, but were unaware of it being from Nahuatl or another Native language.

Q. What are some challenges that you or your students have faced since teaching here?

A. I personally have faced the issue of imposter syndrome in my own teaching journey, but that is a book’s worth of discussion since it has been part of many things I end up doing. For students one of the biggest challenges is pronunciation - from the TL in many variants (and especially the Ł in Jalisco Nahuatl) to the proper emphasis, Nahuatl doesn’t play by the rules of English or Spanish, which can lead to some initial difficulties for learners.

Q. What is one piece of advice you give to students who are struggling to connect to their roots?

A. Go about things slowly & respectfully. Don’t rely solely on DNA test numbers if you have access to familial elders or other relatives who know where your family is from. Remember that groupings like “Nahua-Otomi” are both reductive and inaccurate in a cultural sense, and that migration plays a part in many of our stories. One grandparent’s family might have relocated from one town to another, so being able to refine a region where more than one or two generations come from is often essential.

Q. How would you say students can succeed in your classroom?

A. Simple - be kind to yourself and don’t lose focus! Remember that it is important to learn in a way that benefits you as the student, whether that be via flashcards and writing things down, or reviewing videos/recordings. Also, make sure not to get too lost in the desire for more vocabulary, instead focusing on what is being taught and take time to internalize current materials.

[stargaterevival]

20 questions for writers! Thanks @sga-owns-my-soul @frostysfrenzy

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

5 works

2. What's your total ao3 word count?

116,241, mostly between the two novels.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Stargate SG1 and Atlantis, MCU Avengers Steve Rogers, (unpublished: Saving Hope, Daredevil, Supernatural).

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

The there are only 5 on Ao3 so far 😅

You and Me (Stargate SG-1, Daniel Jackson x gn reader, 🔞)

What was Lost (Marvel, Steve Rogers x OFC 🔞)

Fetish (Captain America, Steve x Peggy)

Worlds Colliding (Stargate SG-1, Sam x Martouf)

Capturing Samantha (Stargate SG-1, Sam x Martouf)

5. Do you respond to comments?

YESSS!! I live for comments, and reblogs, all the interactions!!!

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

You and me is the angstiest in general. It gets very emotionally dark.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

What was Lost has the happiest ending so far... but it may be overtaken by You and Me, we'll have to wait and see 😉

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I was once told my mystery was too mysterious 🤣

9. Do you write smut?

Sort of, I write romance 😘 so it's bound to happen 😏

Okay, yes. Yes, I do.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've ever written?

Not yet, never say never.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

We all have, everyone who's been on Ao3 for a while. Don't steal my shit 🤬 I'm pretty mad about chatGPT scraping everyone's works. Disgusting bunch of thieves!!!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope! I think most writing loses its essence in translation.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

Yes! It was so much fun!!!

14. What's your all time favourite ship?

Probably Daniel/Sha're, or Daniel/Vala (Stargate) but also partial to Steve/Nat (MCU), and Matt/Elektra (Daredevil). But X reader fics are the most fun you can have 💘

15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I have a dirty Daredevil X reader languishing in my wips. Might get around to it when I watch the new season.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Character voices and attentions to detail. People usually comment on those things. I'm also good at bringing the Drama™️. There may be some screaming, crying and throwing up 😂

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Keeping it short and sweet, my slow burns really are slow burns. I have to pay specific attention to pacing and linking scenes well. I do way too much Research™️ .

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I would if I had a native language speaker to proof read it for me.

As a reader I find it annoying if I have to keep moving back to the chapter notes to check translations. It interrupts the flow.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

The X-files but I was a kid, does that count? Supernatural is probably more relevant.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

Honestly, I love my two novels, I'm pretty attached to them 🥰 they've been such a journey, personally and in terms of developing my writing skills.

tagging @i-am-morrigans-apprentice @jgem87 @darsynia @figsandfandoms @rightbrainboredom @riverageleis @sarcasticsciencefictionwriter @cuillere @courtforshort15 and anyone else who's interested!

-- Ellie 💗 (@ellie--eille)

questions under the cut

20 questions for writers!

Thanks @

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

2. What's your total ao3 word count?

3. What fandoms do you write for?

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

5. Do you respond to comments?

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

9. Do you write smut?

10. Do you wrote crossovers? What's the craziest one you've ever written?

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

14. What's your all time favourite ship?

15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

16. What are your writing strengths?

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

19. First fandom you wrote for?

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

[desruc]

Hey! Happy to hear youre enjoying aftg! I could slide you the pdf haha, but i understand if you prefer physical (since I own the physical copies myself xDD)

Hi! Oh yeah, I'm enjoying aftg much, much more than I anticipated :DD I went in it thinking "let's see how it is" and now I'm honestly feeling like Sakavic's style of writing is one of my favorites :'D I don't know what it is that clicks so well, it just feels so different than anything I've read before; it's so effortless but sharp at the same time. Not to be edgy or anything but my mind keeps going back to picturing serrated blades when I'm trying to think how to describe Sakavic's style :'D

And oh,,, the characters... Every character feels unique and I can easily imagine them in front of me; I feel like Sakavic doesn't even spend that much time describing them and I still get different vibes from each of them :D Neil and Andrew are (surprise, surprise) my faves and, regrettably, I found myself drawn to Riko too because I can't help loving sadistic bastards, but I'm also pretty fond of Dan and Matt and I truly wish their relationship will last through the last book, I want them to be happy :o

All that said, yeah, sure, there is room for criticism, too - in all fairness the story is quite unhinged and unrealistic and shit's fucked up - but seriously, I kind of feel like... this story is not meant to be taken too seriously? So all that is all right by me. However, sometimes I felt like I'm totally lost what the characters are talking about (English is not my native language though, so maybe that's the problem), sometimes the time skips forward a lot unexpectedly, and beacuse of that there are scenes with a lot of telling instead of showing - BUT the overall vibe of the first two books is super intriguing and yeah, simply put, so far I like All For the Game a lot!

Lastly, thanks for offering to slide the pdf my way! :'DDD But yep, you guessed it right, I prefer the physical copy - but if it starts to feel like an eternity waiting for it, I might come back to your offer (ˉ ▽ ˉ；)

[kawipastell1928]

Pokémon Players that I interacted with in Pokémon Sword/Shield in the Wild Area, Isle of Armor, and Crown Tundra on February 24, 2024!

I will be putting the name shown to me in game, and only put names in English so I apologize to any foreign Trainers I had to leave out due to unable to write your name in your language, but I love you all the same! Names have been wrote down EXACTLY as I saw them in game, so yes, these are what people names themselves. Enjoy! ✨

poketips

PikaSus

shadow

k3ltrick

Matt

mr you

patrickstar

JageDsKitana

ALFIE;)

Milo

chungus

ADHARA

Yuuri

POKEMONRUNT

Snow

Saint

Adrian

Clément

Tiggs

Emma/Jana

Laura

carlitos

Noah

sessa

Maggie

Lucke

BaoDD

pany2486

miguel

Jay

Sonic13

Tommy

tomi y vicho

Lauriane

brit

darr

sui

8 Bit King

KO

Solid

Darky

Nemo

Kael

ash ketchup

Rlt

bub

luke

Tad

Damian 3.o

Panda

Ninja

Asche

Fish

Woz

Dylan

ORORO

Lukala

jeremiah

Devin

Kingswim

Mikan

KingCosmos

Iris

Aiden

Chris

Akito

Tannar

Kylee

Jesús

Colin

Auriel

Hunter

Emmalynn

John

dazzle

Brittany

brodster

Nader

nate

Alijan

Dominik767

Peaches

Baby Yoshi

Kyle

Mashedbeans

Steven2

truth

Jason

SavDrax

lucas

lGawnl

Rajiv

Colorwarm

Fefo

Linky

Bradley

SooS

bubba

Voldemuerte

Nachi

⭐TERU⭐

Ale

Hikari

Henry

Please don't forget the people in Palestine, Sudan, and Congo who are persecuted for being alive and believing certain ways in their homes. Don't forget the Hawaiian natives who have no say in their own land and homes, and that they also deserve their independence from the forced colonization they are under. We will never stop bringing awareness and hope you keep them in mind and support them all one day being Happy, Safe, and Healthy. 💖

[gracethyomen]

Arms Length Away: Masterlist

“The awful thing is that no matter how much you hold her at arm's length, she's still going to love you. Because you gave her just enough hope that she'll always wonder if you care about her the way she cares about you.”

Natalie is the paralegal that's been in love with Matt since she's known him.

Unbeknownst to her, Matt knows all too well how she feels about him, but tries to keep her at arms length to keep her safe.

When she starts to get dragged into the underbelly of hell's kitchen he calls home, some things can no longer remain hidden, and some emotions aren’t so easy to control.

I've had a few random drabbles outlining this story for a long time, and I posted a small excerpt a few days ago including a little spicy tidbit. As I write more of this story in actual full sentences I'm going to try to put them in chronological order here. I posted the original snippet first but I'm hoping I can put it in order eventually depending on how this little endeavor goes.

So without further ado, here's what I've got so far.

Warning: This story and most posts on my blood are MDNI. For depictions of violence, sexual content, language, and unhealthy relationship dynamics. Please don't model relationships after Matt and Natalie, many parts of their relationship are not all that healthy. I wrote them this way because Matt and Natalie are flawed characters, and the flaws of each character in Daredevil are some of my favorite parts of the show. Keep this in mind when reading, please. There are more warnings for this series but they will most likely be labeled specifically on individual chapters.

X: not uploaded yet, drafted.

R: not uploaded, not drafted.

O: uploaded and added to the master list.

Vague Job Description. (O)

Clear Cut Case. (O)

Complicated. (O)

Loose Tongue. (O)

Stairs. (O) (Care about you pt. 1)

Micro-Changes. (O) (Care about you pt. 2)

World On Fire (O)

Manhattan Native Obituaries Column. (O)

Things We Lost in The Fire (O)

Something old. (X)

Nelson v. Murdock (X)

The People v. Natalie Bishop (X)

End of Season 1. Both of DD and ALA.

Hopefully season 2 after some more drafting.

a/n: Thank you to everybody who read the first two excerpts of this story and for enabling my chaotic writer brain. @abucketofweird you are the main reason I'm publishing most of this so thank you for your interest.

[igotanidea]

Thanks @thesandsofelsweyr ;)

How many works do you have on AO3? 0 and counting :D I really have to put some there though

What’s your total A03 word count? as above :D

What fandoms do you write for? Sandman, DC, Marvel, Supernatural, Shadow and Bone (RIP), Wednesday, Bridgerton....

I recently got a requeest for Totally Spies so as you can see I'm everexpanding

What are your top five fics by kudos? as above :D no AO3

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I do! I love interactions!

What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Cheater part 1 I guess. Or on second thought Pain was worse.

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? A lot actually. I believe Father's day present may be the fluffiest.

Do you get hate on your fic? yes, one time I almost got blocked because of it...

Do you write smut? yes

Do you write crossovers? not really, I like to drop some references though.

Have you ever had a fic stolen? yes, it happened to (Heart)warming

Have you ever had a fic translated? no

Have you ever co-written a fic? not yet, but not opposed to.

What‘s your all-time favourite ship? chandler/joey from friends, thomas/newt from the maze runner (recently Brimsley/Reynolds from Queen Charlotte)

What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Selflessness series (Matt Murdock)

The counterparts (the Sandman)

...

What’s your writing strengths? Twisting the words and humor

What’s your writing weaknesses? Rewriting the fic in my head after it's been published and overthinking the plot.

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I actually did a little. In Crawl back to you I went spanish on. I think it's a nice way to create a native character provided it fits in the plot. And it's a way to learn something new or practise sth you've already learned.

First fandom you wrote for? Sandman

Favourite fic you’ve ever written?

Damn, it;s like choosing a favourite child (which, by the way I don't have). I really like (Heart)warming, Hoodies and sneakers, Family rules, I won't hurt you and Jealousy.

@gone-batty-fics @pinksirensong @fullbelieverheart @lightwing-s

20 Questions for Fic Writers!

TY for tagging me @zeroducks-2 😘 Passing to torch along to @blahwesome, @baesonjason, @niphredil-14, @scaryscarecrows, @mrsd-writes, @igotanidea, @artzysyam, @thejasonandsladeagenda (no pressure ofc!)

How many works do you have on AO3? 11 on SandsOfElsweyr, 2 on my other top secret account 👀

What’s your total A03 word count? 47,475

What fandoms do you write for? I've written fic for Dragon Age and Skyrim, but my only published fics are in the Jason Peter Todd fandom 😉

What are your top five fics by kudos? (Only including my SandsOfElsweyr fics)

✧ The Sus Boy Next Door (ao3) 229 Kudos ✧

After coming back from a terrible blind date your asshole neighbor is the last person you want to see right now. He doesn’t have his signature scowl for you tonight, however. Tonight he seems terrified.

✧ Hollowed Out (ao3) 194 Kudos ✧

When Jason saw that photo of Batman and his new Robin, the thin cord of hope holding him together had snapped and he had broken into a million pieces. No one was coming for him. Not one single person on the planet cared whether he lived or died, or how much he suffered, or how loud he screamed. No one except the Clown. He was Joker’s now, and he would say or do anything to get a reprieve from the torment and the pain, even if it meant letting himself be reduced to something less than human.

✧ Remember Jason Todd? (ao3) 114 Kudos ✧

Joker reminisces to Batman about one of the happiest years of his life: the year he spent breaking Jason Todd.

✧ The Wrong Cell (ao3) 96 Kudos ✧

When Harley comes to fetch Batman’s annoying little sidekick from his cell in Arkham Asylum she finds someone unexpected in his place.

✧ His (ao3) 82 Kudos ✧

Jason has been beaten half to death with a crowbar, shredded by barbed wire, strung up for so long his shoulders ripped from their sockets, shocked, starved, branded… It's only a wooden paddle, it can’t hurt more than any of the Clown’s other toys… right?

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I get behind sometimes but I try to reply to every comment I get. If you take the time to leave me a comment, I'll take the time to give you a reply! Fun fact: I love replying with reaction gifs, hehehe

What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? lol. Almost every fic I write has an angsty ending 😂 I suppose Hollowed Out (ao3) is the angstiest so far.

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Touch (ao3) or Cocoon (ao3)

Do you get hate on your fic? I'm sure I do but I've thankfully never seen it!

Do you write smut? Yes. Badly 😂 But I'm learning! Practice makes perfect~

Do you write crossovers? Personally not a fan of crossovers 🙃

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not that I know of

Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope

Have you ever co-written a fic? Nope

What‘s your all-time favourite ship? Probably SanSan (ASoIaF). Then there's Shakarian (Mass Effect), Surana x Alistair (Dragon Age), and AK Jay x my OC 💕 Also can't forget AK JokerJay and Thramsay (ASoIaF), muwahaha 😈

What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I don't want to answer this and jinx myself!

What’s your writing strengths? Putting men through the ringer.

What’s your writing weaknesses? Overcoming my perfectionism 😪

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I have to phone a friend!

First fandom you wrote for? Probably Mario? I've been writing for a looooooooong ass time, heh.

Favourite fic you’ve ever written? Hollowed Out (ao3) ❤️❤️❤️

[fullmoon-84]

Break me

Theme song:

Summary: Marc Spector wants nothing more than you to break him apart.

Rating: 18+

Warnings: Spanking, bondage (ropes, blindfold), sub!Marc, femdom, edging, mentions of subspace, angst

Word Counting: 3.9K

Author's note: Deep apologies for the incorrect use of grammar and punctuation. I wrote this fanfic in my native language and translated it on google 'cause I don't fully trust my English skills to the point of writing 4k words, so the punctuation was used according to my language.

It's probably the worst thing I've ever written in my life lol but I've been missing sub!Moon boys. (Also this is my first smut and the first thing I've ever written in here.)

Enjoy it!

He could feel everything.

He could feel the thin air rushing through his lungs and his throat drying out with each heaving breath. He could feel the cool wooden floor against his knees and the black fabric of the blindfold caress his lashes. The ropes tied to his wrists were starting to burn slightly at this point, and he feared he would burst into flames, his body as hot as the fire the devil burned in hell.

He could feel the cold wind trying to calm his body down, failing. He could hear the quiet hum, an icy whisper, passing through the half-open window of your apartment and hitting his skin.

Slap.

A groan escaped his dry throat as the leather of the whip hitted his left thigh.

Slap. A moan.

" Look at you."

He heard your footsteps around him, taking in the image of the big, fearless Marc Spector. The same man who'd been in the army fighting wars that weren't his, killing enemies that weren't his, facing bullets and mud and the cold like the big strong man he was. The man he needed to be. The man who wasn't afraid to stand up to his enemies, who would never be defeated by them, who wouldn't show weakness in front of them, who would never go down on his knees for them.

But for you, he would.

Your breath was almost caught in your throat as you circled him, rubbing the material of the whip gently over his shoulder and neck in time with your slow steps, admiring the image in front of you.

On his knees with his legs spread apart, his black boxer briefs felt tighter now, marking and rubbing against his rock hard cock, a dark wet spot marking where his tip was, leaking precum. The blindfold covering his eyes was a little damp from the few tears that formed and clung to his lashes. His mouth was parted, breathing heavily, his lips wet and glistening with saliva every time he ran his tongue to moisten them. His hands moved restlessly against the ropes tied behind his back, fingers curling and squeezing palms together leaving small half moons shaped, and red marks formed where the whip's leather had met his skin earlier.

The big and fearless Marc Spector who fought in battles and endured the torture of enemies was no longer there. Right now there was the other side of Marc; the most vulnerable and submissive side, that wanted to be taken care of and surrender control.

" You are so beautiful, Marc."

He felt his cheeks get a little warm, and his head moved from one side to another looking for you. Now facing him, you chuckled low and placed one foot on his chest pushing him lightly, enough to make him lose some balance for a few seconds. He gasped in surprise at the sudden act.

Your foot dropped lower, resting on his left thigh on top of where the whip had hit him earlier, and he let out a low moan at the feeling. You moved your foot in small, invisible circles, massaging the sore spot. Moving higher, you delicately traced an imaginary line across his groin, sighing as you put pressure on his covered cock, feeling how hard and wet he was just from your previous actions.

" Please." He moaned, letting out a heavy breath as you applied more pressure.

You smiled as his mouth opened a little more, sucking on a breath, ready to let out a groan of pleasure, but instead a groan of frustration came out as you withdrew your foot from his swollen, needy cock.

" Please, Y/n" He whined.

Your hands reached forward, touching his face and caressing his cheek with your thumb in a gentle caress, unlike the roughness you hit him earlier.

" Tell me what you need."

He leaned into your touch, his legs opening a little more suggestively before answering: " touch me."

You smiled at the act, watching as the Adam's apple rose and fell nervously, swallowing saliva, and then moistening his lips once more.

Feeling particularly pious—after all, he handled each lash of the whip so well against his sensitive brown skin—, you once again positioned your foot over the lush bulge in his black boxers, putting pressure and moving your foot slowly up and down.

He tilted his head forward and his mouth opened in an unashamed moan, finally getting some friction on his swollen and certainly red angry cock.

" Oh shit..."

" Does it feel good, baby?"

He whined as you grabbed his hair and pulled his head back almost roughly. He opened his mouth to try to answer your question, but when you applied more pressure and moved your foot faster, pressing harder as it touched his sensitive tip, all he could do was moan and shake his head, but your tight grip on his hair ached and heightened his pleasure. " Ye- hah- shit, yes..."

" You can't come until I say so, got it?" you pulled his hair more roughly, making him look up to you and he shook his head once more.

His face touched your thigh as you moved closer to him. He felt the fabric of the black lace lingerie you wore before you blindfolded him, and felt the heat and wetness emanating from your pussy. He moaned, from the pleasure and from imagining how wet you must be right now, how hot you were and how close his mouth was. He could almost taste you, the scent entering his nostrils and making his cock twitch in his boxers. He brought his face as close as the grip on his hair would allow, kissing the insides of your spread thighs and closing his teeth around the soft flesh in a silent request as he moved against your foot, gasping and moaning.

" Wanna have a taste, babyboy?" You asked as he kept kissing and biting your thigh, nodding and moaning little pleas, moving his hips faster against your foot the best he could.

The hand that was on his head came free, the thumb and forefinger held his face tightly instead, moving it back. You leaned forward, your foot stopped moving, pressing almost painfully into his cock and he moaned loud, enjoying the added pain. Your mouth came dangerously close to his parted, glossy lips, your breath mingling with his, making him sigh anticipating a kiss.

" You have to earn it." You whispered against his lips before catching them with your teeth and pulling them slowly and gently.

He whined frustrated at your answer. Your foot moved up and down again, fast and hard, and he moaned desperately, grinding his hips against your foot. His brows furrowed as you placed your thumb in his open mouth, his lips closed around it, and he let out a muffled groan, followed by a high-pitched moan deep in his throat.

The sight below your eyes was breathtaking, and you felt yourself getting wetter by the second, your fluids soaking through your panties, dripping down your thigh. You considered letting him taste you, let him move his lips and tongue desperately against you; as desperate as a thristy man looking for water in the desert. But seeing how his hands clenched behind his back, how his thighs trembled slightly, his hips stuttered, the moans grew louder and more frequent, seeing how his head slowly moved back with each gasp of air that came out of his lungs, how his cock started to throb uncontrollably and the pre-cum was leaking and wetting his underwear even more, you knew he was about to come. Without asking for your permission or telling you to stop because he didn't want to disobey you.

Instead, he kept moving against you, thinking about the mess he was going to make in his underwear, all for you. He wanted to cum in his briefs, hot and wet and sticky. He wanted to cum for you. He felt dirty and ashamed for thinking so but he couldn't help it, couldn't stop it. He was so damn close, almost there, a little more and he would- fuck! Fuck, fuck, fuck, he's going to cum, he's going to cum, he's going to...

A frustrated, desperate moan left his lips as you pulled your foot away, stopping the delicious friction that would have made him come seconds earlier if you'd gone on, just a little longer, a second longer.

He was panting now, a lock of hair caught on his sweaty forehead. He opened his mouth to complain about the pleasure you stole from him, but you squeezed both sides of his cheek firmly with the hand that wasn't holding the whip. He didn't deserve to taste you, didn't deserve to cum yet.

" I said you don't get to cum until I say so." Your voice sounded rough before you let him go. "Ten. Count. If you miss one, we'll start it all over again, am I being clear?."

He swallowed, shook his head and wet his lips, whispering: "yes, ma'am."

You walked around him, taking in the state of his already red-marked body, not missing the way his cock twitched in anticipation.

Slap.

The whip came down against his back, making a high pitched noise. He groaned loudly and his back arched, his hands clenched behind his back.

" One."

Slap.

This time the leather hit lower, just above the curve of his ass, and his hips bucked.

" Two."

You circled him again, only taking a few steps before stopping in front of him. He was panting, his chest rising and falling fast and heavy, his head down, legs spread apart.

Slap.

The whip came down again, slamming against his chest and leaving a diagonal red line from his shoulder to his belly button. His brows furrowed, his jaw clenched before he opened his mouth and a strangled loud groan came out.

" Fuck!" He panted while a single tear ran down his right cheek. His ears began to ring a low bell in the distance. " Three."

The leather met his abdomen.

Slap. A moan.

"Four."

Your arm swung through the air, the whip cutting through the wind with a hiss before landing against his right thigh.

Slap.

His mouth let out a loud whimper and you didin't miss the way his dick twitched at the act. He paused, gasping and letting little moans escape his throat before he said in a low voice: "F-five."

The hand holding the whip came up once more, aiming for the lower part of his right thigh, but hitting the spot where it had hit seconds ago.

Slap.

His brows frowned, you could see his eyes close tightly through the blindfold. His breath caught in his throat as the leather hit his already bruised thigh, and when he managed to release the breath he'd been holding, he cried out. He lost his balance and his body fell forward, nearly hitting the ground. He panted hard and faster than before, little whimpers left his throat, his open mouth let a single drop of saliva run down and fall to the floor, his hands tightened, the rope rubbing his wrists.

You looked worriedly at your boyfriend on the cold wooden floor, crouched down to your heels, placed your hand over his hair in a gentle caress and were about to ask him if he wanted to stop when you saw him bite his lip and moan in pleasure. Just then you saw how his cock throbbed and leaked pre-come, leaking through the underwear and wetting it.

"S-six! Six, fuck, fuck..." Few tears streamed freely down his cheeks now. "Please, please." He sobbed.

You helped him get back to his previous position and got on the same level as him. Your thumb stroked and wiped away the few tears that ran down his cheek in a grounding, gently caress.

Despite the cold, hard wooden floor against his knees, he felt so light now, so good.

He felt a warm and soft touch against his cheek, a velvety voice spoke something in the background but he couldn't concentrate, the bells were drowning out other sounds. The floating sensation took over him.

You made him feel so light. So good.

" You're doing so well, baby, taking it so good". Your voice sounded soft.

He couldn't see because of the blindfold, but you looked at him with loving, worried eyes. You didn't want to cause him any kind of pain other than pleasure, but you trusted him to say the safe word if it was being too much for him.

He heard your voice in the background praising him and he moaned, pleading.

"Tell me what it is that you want." The hand that was holding the whip dropped it to the ground for a moment, and you placed your palm on his other cheek, holding his face and running your eyes slowly over it before placing a soft kiss on his lips.

You felt his lips move against yours, little moans erupting from his throat. When your tongue entered his mouth and stroked his, he melted and you heard the most shameless moan leave his lips. He leaned forward a little to deepen the kiss, his cock twitching once more, seeking friction.

When your lips left his, he whimpered.

"Tell me what you want me to do..." you bit his bottom lip, "...and I'll do it."

He felt his body so light that he swore he was floating. But he wasn't afraid of falling, he was sure there were clouds beneath him, supporting the weight gracefully, the soft material of them caressing his skin. He heard the bells ringing low in his ear and then your voice.

Tell me what you want me to do...

What did he want you to do with him? He felt so comfortable with you, so loved and safe. You made him feel so loved and safe, so good. He could be himself with you, he didn't need to be the man he was supposed to be, the man who fought wars that weren't his and killed enemies that weren't his. He didn't have to be the big, intimidating and brave Marc Spector, he didn't need to pretend he didn't get affected by all the things he's done, by all the people he's killed. He trusted you with his heart, body and soul.You took such good care of him, only you could make him feel so much pleasure, make him feel as light as if he were floating.

Tell me what you want me to do...

Anything. Everything.

He was yours and would let you do whatever you wanted with him. You could do anything with him, everything. You could break him into pieces, kill him even. He was yours to do as you please.

He felt his body getting heavier, slowly coming down from the clouds to the cold wooden floor. He moved slowly and heavily, and he didn't feel the ropes rub against his wrists, but they burned slightly now. When he opened his eyes, he realized he was no longer wearing the blindfold that now rested on the floor next to him. The low light irritated his eyes and he blinked, feeling the tears clinged to his lashes run down his cheeks. When he got used to the light he noticed your delicate features in front of him, searching for his eyes with worried ones, both your hands were holding his face gently and your mouth was moving producing distant sounds.

The bells in his ear grew low, fading away until they finally disappeared, and he could hear your voice.

"Marc, you with me, honey?" Your voice sounded soft, almost a whisper.

He blinked once more, looking around.

"Baby?" his voice was hoarse from so much panting and moaning.

You took a bottle of water that was beside you on the floor and offered it to him. Holding the bottle in one hand and the back of his head in the other, you helped him drink it all.

Like a thirsty man looking for water in the desert.

When he finished the whole bottle, you helped him up and guided him to bed.

"What happened? Why'd you stop?" He took your hands and looked at you, his brows furrowed in concern. "Did I do something wrong?"

You shook your head and leaned down to kiss his forehead gently, then the tip of his nose and finally a peck on his soft lips.

"We just took the game a little too far, that's all." You pecked his lips once more, sighed and squeezed his hand. "I want to take care of you now."

Seeing your eyes staring at him full of love and adoration but also full off worry, all he could do was sigh and agree, giving you a small smile. He would ask you what happened later.

He accepted your outstretched hand and let you lead him to the bathroom. He watched you as you filled the tub, took off your lingerie and got into the water. Your back leaned against the tub and you patted the water in front of you, signaling him to come in with you. He smiled seeing you put on a yellow rubber ducky, then took off his underwear and got into the bathtub with his back against your chest. His cock was still half hard and his body was sensitive. He sighed as he entered the warm water, hissing when it touched his wounds.

You ran your fingers gently over the red marks that weren't covered by water, your head bent forward and placed a chaste kiss on each one.

"Does it hurt?" You whispered with your cheek against his left shoulder.

"A little, but it's good." He blushed slightly at the admission.

His fingertips emerged from the water and touched yours, playing with them before intertwining his hand with yours. He felt you smile against his skin and give his hand a little squeeze.

"I'll still take care of it though."

You sat in silence, playing with each other's fingers, enjoying the warm water against your skin.

The comfortable silence continued as you washed his sweaty hair, noting how relaxed and content he looked. Your eyes roamed over his back, lost in other thoughts, replaying the scene from earlier…the way he'd said that.

Please, break me... kill me.

Tears threatened to form, and you kissed his back, then his shoulders, neck, ear, cheek, and when his hair was clean, you kissed the top of his head, whispering sweet nothings and how much you loved him all the while.

He sighed contentedly. His hands lifted above his head, pulling your face close to his in a chaste kiss. There was nothing suggestive about the kiss, it was his way of saying how much he loved you back, how much he appreciated the affection you had for him.

When the kiss ended you smiled against his lips, leaving a peck on the tip of his nose. He looked at you with loving eyes for a few seconds before leaving another peck on your lips, turning to the front again as you patted him affectionately on the shoulder.

As you ran the sponge over his body, careful not to hurt him or press against his bruises, his eyes were lost on the yellow rubber ducky floating in front of him, but he wasn't thinking about the duck. His mind was elsewhere.

"Baby?"

"Yeah?"

He kept looking at the duck and you kept rubbing his back.

"What happened earlier?"

He kept looking at the duck and you stopped rubbing his back.

You let out a sigh. You couldn't run away from this conversation, it wasn't fair to him, you couldn't leave him questioning and overthinking.

"I left you overwhelmed. I should have noticed when you entered subspace." You played with his wet hair. "You weren't really aware of what you were talking about and…you said a few things."

His body visibly tensed. The slightest chance that he could have hurt you in any way sickened him.

"You didn't say anything to hurt me, I promise." You kissed the back of his head assuring him.

"What did I say?"

You swallowed nervously before answering:

"You asked me to kill you."

His shoulders stiffened and he went still. His eyes were open and staring at the tile in front of him now, his mind racing a hundred miles trying to process what you just said.

The situation he had put you in.

He felt your hands touch his shoulders, heard the water moving as you came a little closer, if that was possible.

"Marc?"

The water stirred again as he shifted and turned, facing you. When your eyes met, his held a glint of guilt. For saying those things, for making you worry, for scaring you.

"I'm sorry". He whispered.

Your brows furrowed, and you cupped his face with both hands and looked into his eyes. His hands found your wrists and held them gently.

"You don't have to apologize for anything, okay? You didn't do anything wrong. It wasn't your fault."

His eyes got wet, and he opened his mouth to say otherwise but shut it up when your lips found his. Your thumbs caressed his cheek as your lips moved against each other, the salty taste of a tear that had fallen from his eyes mixed with the sweet kiss.

"I love you very, very much. I want you to trust me to tell me how you feel, okay? You're a good man, Marc, and I'm proud of you every day." He nodded with tearful eyes, his hands caressing your wrists. "I'll always be here for you."

You kissed his forehead tenderly.

"Even when you make horrible tea."

He chuckled low, and wrapped you in a hug.

"Thank you." He whispered in your ear. "And I'll never make you tea again after that."

"I was just kidding, honey."

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You finished the bath between the soft sound of water and kisses. You dried his hair when you left the bathroom, applied oil essence to his bruises and some cream, making sure to kiss every reddish mark afterwards, and helped him get dressed.

Lying in bed with his head against your chest and his voice sleepy, he murmured:

"Steven's gonna complain so much tomorrow."

"He will, but today was your day, he will understand."

He hummed in reply.

Silence took over the room as you stroked his hair to sleep.

"Baby?"

"Yeah?"

"You own me an orgasm." He said low, moving closer to you.

You chuckled. "I own us both an orgasm."

He smiled with his eyes closed.

"You could have had one if you'd let me eat you out."

You smiled. That bastard, you thought.

"Alright, go to sleep. Steven has to work tomorrow."

Silence was present again, only the quiet noise of your breathing filled the dark room. When you thought Marc was asleep, he whispered sleepily and quietly:

"I love you."

You then smiled and kissed his forehead once more, already drifting to sleep.

"I love you too."

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Tagging some people who interected on my post about the sub!moonboys. Let me know if you want me to not tag you anymore.

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@stevengrantdom

[undiscovered-horizon]

Imagine reading to Matt in your native language.

The rain was tapping against the windows as if it desperately tried to make its way inside. It was hard to tell when the sun had set as the heavy storm clouds haven't left the sky since morning. The traffic must have slowed down (a sin cities like New York don't forgive) due to the rainfall, making impatient drivers play a cacophony of irritation with their horns. Nighttime has already fallen and street lights created impressionistic caleidoscopes of colors on the waterfalls of rain that ran down the old windows of the apartment. You felt yourself shudder thinking of the rain, unwillingly imagining the discomfort of a cold storm soaking thin layers of clothing the unprepared pedestrians were wearing. Had you have been a little more stubborn, you would have been one of them. How good it felt to be indoors.

The coarse dryness of the book in your hands felt comforting, considering the intrusive thundering of rain against the window. Each time you turned a page, the rain as if hit harder against the glass, thinking the dry state of the book was mocking it. The owner of the bookstore called you in the morning to say that your order arrived and maybe that was the moment some higher power plotted the course of that day's events: from the novel to staying the night at Matt's apartment to escape the rain. It all felt a little too calculated to write it up as a simple coincidence.

A content sigh left your lips as you stared at the words so familiar to you. New York City may have become your new home and the discomfort of being a foreigner quickly left you in a city so culturally varying but it still felt so blissfully nostalgic to read something in your native language, especially if it was a genuinely good piece of work. It was a piece of comfort and safety that helped to keep you grounded: a piece of home in your hands.

Matt stirred in the bed you shared with him and that made you realize you had stopped reading, for a moment you have gotten lost in your own thoughts and the rhythm of the heavy rainfall outside.

"Sorry, was thinking of something," you said quietly as you looked for the last passage you read.

"What's on your mind?" You felt his warm breath against your chest. How typical of him to press you into the mattress with his own weight. And how typical of him to never admit it's to keep you safe.

"Nothing in particular," you answered. "The rain, the book... Just some passing thoughts. Anyway, where was I?" The question was directed rather to yourself than Matt who had no understanding of what you were reading.

Having found the place at which you trailed off, you resumed reading the passage aloud, content with how obvious and familiar your native language sounded coming from your mouth. Although he couldn't understand a word, Matt adored hearing you speak your mother tongue. He claimed it sounded almost too natural coming from your lips. He felt as if he had uncovered some intimate and essential part of you. Some people say that depending on the language one speaks, their personality slightly changes. If Matt were to believe that, wouldn't you be the rawest form of yourself right now? None of those little details went unnoticed: slight changes in intonation, the pacing of the words or even the vocal range in which you read; he memorized all of them. The more he experienced that rawness of your soul, the more he wished to be skinned alive before your eyes, to rip his chest open and hear your proclamation of love in a tongue he couldn't even begin to understand.

"Why do you like it so much?" you whispered to him. Had his hearing been a little worse, the thundering rain outside would have drowned out your hushed words completely. "I mean, you can't understand anything from it."

"I like listening to you," he answered equally quietly. His voice was slightly croaky as if the peaceful atmosphere slowly but steadily lulled him to sleep. "And so it happens that you sound wonderful when I can't understand it."

"Should I bring one of my college books then?" Both of you laughed at your question.

Matt's head rested against your chest as you continued to read the book. He could be on the other side of the flat and he would still easily hear your heartbeat but there was something silently intimate about having his ear pressed against your skin. His eyes were closed, half trying to sleep and half focusing on your voice accompanied by the rumble of the rain.

You weren't sure how long you'd been reading when you realized Matt has fallen asleep. His steady, shallow, warm breath brushed against your chest giving you an oddly found comfort: the one savior of the city was asleep on top of you, and if he could sleep on that rainy night, so could you; he was right there, prepared to fight any real or imagined threats that dared raise their hand at you. Because of his vigilante alter-ego, Matt had a rather light sleep, which made you learn to stir in a chameleon's way: slowly and dexterously. He deserved a slow, restful night.

It was hard to tell whether he felt the chaste kiss you left on the top of his had, as he didn't move. His stubble felt weirdly nice against your bare chest, the roughness of the beard being a constant reminder that he was right there, closer than a hand's reach. Matt was generally a man that skillfully built walls around him, for one reason or another, and it was perhaps that knowledge that made you realize how his hands were clinging onto you, holding you in place. Was he afraid you would leave him? Or that someone would take you away from him? That affectionate side of him felt like a sweet secret, an enigma he silently pleaded you to never reveal.

You put the book on a bedside table, next to his red-tinted glasses, and tangled your arms around his body. He felt so strangely vulnerable it made your chest clench with a plethora of emotions.

For some reason, you couldn't sleep on this oddly peaceful night. Was it too good to be true? The rain danced against the windows and Matt was unconsciously clinging onto you for his dear life. It felt wrong to sleep right now as if for some time it was supposed to be you looking after him, and not the usual way around. Absentmindedly, your fingers traced his skin, without much thought they dragged up and down his body like one does to soothe a wounded and scared animal. Was that who he was?

Little did you know, he wasn't fully asleep yet, and so your hushed confession of soft affections and a love Romeo knew only in his dreams have reached him but Matt could only take a guess what those tender, ethereal words could possibly mean.

Author's note: I would love to visit Greenpoint one day. It's sometimes called "Little Poland", how cute is that?

[sonar009]

Yes, but it would be easier to curate if you could be more specific on what you were looking for, plus I dunno what you’ve already read. That said, I can (and will) try to do a very broad amalgamation post. I’ve kind of been wanting to anyway.

I went kinda nuts after the break, hope it helps. ^_^

For each story, I’ll mark its relationship with canon, its word count, and whether it’s complete or not. If something is incomplete I’ll include how recently it was updated as of the writing of this post. Ordering is from longest -> shortest by word count.

My tastes skew fairly shippy and very sapphic, but given that you’re asking for fic recs of TOH and Amphibia, you probably expected that.

Amphibia The Arcanist Marcy Wu (426k, incomplete. Updated June 2023)

Canon Divergence: My personal favorite swap AU, and the story I recommend the most out of everything I’ve read if someone is looking for a longfic. The trio is rotated in their starting locations, but the characterization, worldbuilding, and humor are all very true to the spirit of the show. Very Marcy-centric, though the sequel has spent a lot of time incorporating Sasha as well.

Game of Hearts (104k, incomplete. Updated December 2021)

Canon-Divergence: A darker take on Amphibia, built on the core idea of exploring the potential consequences of fighting your best friend with real swords. Started before True Colors, so it diverges pretty wildly from canon due to not taking those revelations into account. Still manages to have some really good characterization of all three of the trio, with my personal favorite in this story being Anne’s.

Into the Latte-Verse (87k, incomplete. Updated May 2023)

Full AU (Coffee Shop): A really nice mix of excellent characterization and cozy vibes, while still maintaining a decent amount of the drama, trauma, and stakes that drew me to Amphibia in the first place. Despite not including the world of Amphibia, Amphibian characters are still present, they’re just also humans, and everyone’s characterization is on-point.

gay people back from frogland what will they do (63k, complete)

Post-Canon (Diverges before Epilogue): We all know the themes that Matt Braly wanted to push in Amphibia - learning to let things go, embracing change, etc. Sometimes, though, what we want is to see the trio be codependent messes while they deal with their trauma. This is my favorite incarnation of that approach to post-canon.

Lone Toad and Human (52k, complete)

Canon-Divergent: Essentially starts as an interpretation of what Sasha is doing after Reunion and Toad Catcher, but diverges from canon into its own resolution. (It was written before the show was actually finished.) Excellent Sasha characterization overall, and a really interesting take on toad culture in Amphibia.

Catachresis (30k, ‘complete’)

Canon-divergent: Amphibia, but the natives of the world don’t speak English. Fascinating take on language-learning and adapting to a foreign culture, with some massive difference from canon owing to the characters not being able to communicate with their Amphibian hosts. I will give a soft warning that, while the story is complete, it’s left very open-ended, which can feel a little frustrating if you’re not ready for it. Still, it’s extremely well-written and well-thought out.

Differences Between Us (10k, complete)

Canon-compliant: Exploration of some of the smaller and weirder difficulties and misunderstandings that would come from being a human dropped into a world of frog people. Leans very heavily into found family as a keystone.

but i will walk down to the end with you (9.5k, complete)

Canon-compliant: Essentially a missing scene fic of Anne and Sasha dealing with the fallout from True Colors after Return to Amphibia. When I first came looking for Amphibia fanfiction, this was basically the first thing I wanted to see because it felt like it was missing from the show.

entropy (7.5k, complete)

Post-epilogue: Self-indulgent Sasharcy shipping fluff. I’m especially fond of Sasha’s characterization in this one, there’s a lot of emphasis on her instinct to be a provider and protector.

Worried Shoes (6.5k, complete)

Canon-compliant: Perspective piece from the POV of Mr. and Mrs. Boonchuy of the time Anne spends in Amphibia. Lots of emotions, particularly ones related to grief and loss that the show itself kind of skirted around.

Keeping Up Appearances (4.5k, complete)

Canon-adjacent: A vaguely angsty Sasha character study, aiming to explain some of the stranger habits we see Sasha pick up in the show, as well as exploring the perspectives of the toads offering her shelter.

Seeing from the Inside Out (3k, complete)

Post-epilogue: The calamity trio navigate their adult lives, and deal with being highly recognizable because of their time in Amphibia.

so you’re good for me (2.8k, complete)

Post-epilogue: I consider this a spiritual successor to entropy, because despite being written by a different author, it integrates almost seamlessly with its narrative. Centered around miscommunication, but it’s oops-all-fluff, so it comes across as funny instead of frustrating.

The Owl House

Rainbow Hair Clip (386k, complete)

Canon-divergent: Diverges immediately after Young Blood, Old Souls, with a lot of really cool world building stuff that makes for a fun alternative to what we got from canon. Structurally, this series tends to alternate between stories which are mostly just shippy fluff, and stories that are more dramatic and get into the lore being built up in the world. Both aspects are really good.

Bring Me That Horizon (301k, Complete)

Full AU (Pirates): A really fun, swashbuckling adventure which takes The Owl House’s cast and drops them into the Age of Sail. Still uses TOH’s magic and coven systems.

The Haunting of Blight Manor (216k, complete)

Full AU (Mystery/Horror): I generally shy away from anything horror or even horror-adjacent, but I made an exception for this one and I’m really glad that I did. A riveting ghost story with some really interesting conversion of the people we know from the Boiling Isles into a (mostly) mundane Earth setting.

Moonlit Masquerade (187k, complete)

Canon-divergent: Some general Lumity goodness that develops into a full series AU. Lots of interesting extrapolation on the world building we had as-of the end of season 1.

Luz Noceda and the Olympians: The Lost Goddess (147k, complete)

Full AU (Fusion Fic): This one is a little bit of a stretch to include in an Owl House recommendations list, but not too much. Fusion fic with Percy Jackson and the Olympians; essentially, it takes the characters we know from The Owl House and re-imagines them as demigods in the world of Percy Jackson, though most of the main characters from Percy Jackson do not make an actual appearance. Everybody’s characterization is excellent, including their various divine heritage.

Dangers in Fiction (142k, complete)

Canon-compliant(ish): Takes the characters we love so much and ratchets the stakes back a little bit, pulling the focus into Hexside and letting Belos sit on the backburner. Really intriguing mystery story intermixed with some lovely fluffy Lumity nonsense.

make my heart your home (84k, incomplete. Updated January 2021)

Canon-compliant: An exploration of Luz’s relationship with Eda, Eda’s relationship with Lilith, and the aftermath of Young Blood, Old Souls. Extremely solid characterization of Luz in particular, though everyone involved is well-written.

Several Witches Are Typing (37k, complete)

Canon-divergent: Exploration of the Emerald Entrails after Any Sport in a Storm, a really enjoyable group dynamic that doesn’t get explored as often as some others.

The Rewards of Being Loved (33k, incomplete. Updated July 2021)

Canon-compliant: In-depth exploration of the pre-season 2 Lumity dynamic, AKA the part where Amity was a complete and total disaster rather than only kind of a disaster.

Nothing in This World But You (30k, complete)

Canon-compliant: Similar to the above, but with less emphasis on Amity being a disaster and more emphasis on her properly integrating into Luz’s friend group. Very nice pacing.

Finally With You (20k, complete)

Full AU (No Magic): If you’ve ever been in a long-distance relationship, this will probably resonate with you. It perfectly captures the giddy excitement of finally getting to actually meet a long-distance partner in person, and from there executes an adorable Lumity romance.

Gus and Boscha’s Excellent Adventure (11k, complete)

Canon-divergent: Off-the-wall comedy story that isn’t quite like any other Owl House story I’ve read. Even so, it manages to cleave pretty well to the canon characterization.

For Love and Lockets (7.9k, complete)

Canon-divergent: Set after Escaping Expulsion. This story has some of the best, purest, most sincere yearning that I can recall reading pretty much anywhere.

Careful With All That Ego, Child (3.7k, complete)

Canon-divergent: Lilith character study, where Lilith is a lot more involved with mentoring Amity than she is in canon.

pet names (1.5k, complete)

Canon-divergent: Short one-shot of Luz being an insecure dork. That’s really all there is to it, it’s very cute.

A Quiet Valley (1k, complete)

Canon-compliant: Camila’s perspective on the night the Hexsquad arrives in Gravesfield after facing down Belos. Really interesting exploration of the inhuman aspects of witches.

Do y'all have any amphibia/toh fic recs?

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[hollandorks]

Hi! sorry for the bad english it is not my native language, but i have a question😊do you already know when there will be an update from saved?

I love this story so much and can't wait to read a new chapter. To me, this is the best Matt Murdock fanfic. I've read the story 3 more times since the last update.

This is so sweet 🥺 and your english is perfect don't worry!

As for the update: I really don't know. I got really burnt out with the story and have had to take a break. I will update eventually but unfortunately I really just don't know exactly when.

I love that you love the story though and this definitely helps motivate me to want to write more! ❤️

[defilerwyrm]

Mostly because I love watching you gush about this, partially because asking for a friend, when writing Essek either in RP or a fic or something, or reading what other people have written, what are your favourite characterisations/personality traits/habits/details/whatever? Or what do you really enjoy? What makes you feel like the writer understands and portrays the character well? I know it's a very subjective question but fuck it.

What a question! Let’s see what I can think of off the cuff.

1. Fussiness outside of The Zone. Essek is prim and modest most of the time. He doesn’t go in for crass humor and he doesn’t like getting messy—with exceptions to the latter. He’s not exactly prudish, but he prefers to present himself as very put-together and values his personal space highly. (Unlike many fic writers, apparently, I do not see these as “feminine” traits.)

2. Full sleeves-rolled-up mode in The Zone. When Essek’s mind is fully engaged in something he’s passionate about, his enthusiasm breaks through his icy façade and he goes all in on it. He becomes far more hands-on, even frenetic, and far more intense in these moments. He’ll get down on the ground, he’ll get messy, he’ll go full nerd mode, and it’s beautiful.

3. Aloof and intense by turns. His Shadowhand “mask” is imposing because it’s a careful construction of a thin veil of “don’t mind me” and polite little smiles over jagged ice and raw, if quiet, power. He’s meant to come across as someone who’s quietly pleasant until you cross him, at which point he will fuck your world inside-out. When he cares, he is a very intense person, prone to heavy (and measured) words and heavier eye contact.

4. Hidden anxiety. Eszak is Undercommon for “worry” and I think that neatly encapsulates his entire being. I do NOT favor the woobified “uwu smol anxious bean” Essek that’s proliferated since later in the campaign, but the fact is that he’s got a lot on his plate and all the shit he’s gotten himself tangled up in keep his nerves frayed—which lies beneath both his placid little smile and the “do not fuck with me” mien under that. There is something to be said for seeing him willing to open up to the Nein and let them see when he’s barely holding it together, because no one else gets that privilege, but I’ve found a depressing number of people forget just how tightly he keeps all that tamped down under most circumstances.

5. Secret fidgeting. I can’t count the number of times I’ve read Essek using his mantle and robes to hide the fact that he’s fidgeting and wringing his hands when he’s nervous but not in a safe place to show it, and as a chronic fidgeter, I dig it.

6. No toxic masculinity but not effeminate. GASP, IT’S POSSIBLE. Essek is completely unthreatened by Jester’s froufy creations (to wit, the pink lacy parasol and the garden gloves with little roses on them), but he is not your Scarlet O’Hara.

7. Calling Caleb by his full name. He doesn’t do it ALL the time, but when he does, there’s weight to it. I like to imagine that once he learns that Caleb is not the man’s original name but a chosen one, this carries the extra weight of affirming that identity.

8. Secret skin hunger. Oh gods, this is my catnip. Any character who purposefully avoids physical contact learning to accept it and then discovering they’ve been craving touch like mad? Put that in my FACE I WANT IT

9. Common as a second (or third, or fourth) language. There were a number of times that Matt played this up: Essek is conversationally fluent in Common, but not to the degree of a native speaker; there are some words and phrases he just doesn’t know. I like that because it shows that someone’s intelligence is not measured purely by how familiar they are with any given language—he’s a staggeringly brilliant man, and that’s not undermined by him coming across Common slang he doesn’t know. Obviously this is something that could be done very poorly, but thankfully I don’t think I’ve come across any examples.

10. Does not want pity or to have his sins sympathized away. Post-97, he’s sitting with his guilt, as he should. He doesn’t want to be told “It’s okay, you didn’t mean it” or “It’s not your fault, you were manipulated.” He legitimately was neutral evil. There’s no getting around that. It’s in the damn book. Post-reveal Essek fully acknowledges that he made active choices that were extraordinarily harmful and that he did so for purely selfish reasons. He shares this intensity with Caleb. Neither of them are Bucky Barnes. They were manipulated, yes, but that manipulation wouldn’t have worked without their cooperation—and they’re not willing to sweep that under the rug.

Bonus:

11. Top!Dom!Essek. Y’all are free to disagree and I will respect your right to be completely wrong. Short and skinny != bottom, come on. Embrace the goodness that is a tiny Dom. Let 👏Caleb 👏 get 👏 wrecked 👏 (It’s not that I specifically dislike bottom!Essek, as evidenced by my own writing—hell, I’ve got a whole damn story about him trying to get on Caleb’s dick—it’s just that I deeply dislike how most people write it, which is that they treat it as default and often wrap it up in heteronormative hyperfeminization. Y’all. Even if you like a femmier Essek, PLEASE take the advice of a real-life actual queer man who’s slept around a lot: you would be AMAZED by the number of tops I’ve known and had who are a lot more camp/femme than me. For queer men, masc vs femme is NOT a solid indicator of preferred sex role. My favorite fuckbuddy is a flaming queen and a strict top ffs. Come on.)